It alway felt vital for me to revamp myself after a break-up. Reset myself in a way. Thank God I am married now (5 years this year!) and don’t suffer from those types of renewals. Mostly, I couldn’t get as deep with myself in those renewals. I would change my hair, or location, or find a new hobby….not all unhealthy, some rather refreshing. However, it is nothing like the work I am able to do now being in a stable, supportive relationship. Throughout my adult life I have dedicated some serious time to heal some old wounds, address some traumas, bring in more spirituality, and continue to tinker on my character defects.

This month we decided to stop going to church. Of course we are always open to changing this decision, but for now, our children are at such a young and wild age, it is not only hard for us as a family to benefit from the message at church, but it is clear it is difficult for others as well. Instead, we are sleeping until we wake naturally, and studying our own way. We have a children’s Bible we can read from, we have a wonderful tool Right Now Media with various studies for adults and shows for children, and we have a day to disconnect from our work and focus on our relationship with God.

In starting this, I am able to do a study focused around motherhood. I am learning more about myself and my wants, and creating a realistic plan to find fulfillment. I am learning about how my wants translate into things that need attention and healing. In this, my relationship to God can be improved. And when I feel supported and comforted by God, my life on this earth can be much more joyous and purposeful.