The End (of 2019)

I am so excited about 2019.

Notice I did not say I am so excited for 2019 to be over. Honestly, 2019 was an INCREDIBLE year for me. My dreams really came true this year. Bob and I officially started dating, even though we went to a movie together in November of 2018- I had no idea it was intended to be a date! We started working together. I’ve learned first hand that office work is not for me, but even more than that I learned I love working alongside Bob and spending the majority of our time together. This brought us to recognize our shared values and I moved onto the property and was able to become seriously involved in this growing season. And what an incredible job we did! We had such an abundance of food for ourselves we were able to sell left over produce to friends, at the farmers markets and local stores and business. In light of this new confidence we were feeling, we decided to go ahead and clear out more land for the growing season next year, and make this website.

Bob bought me a refrigerator and the deal was done, we were married in the fall on Friday the 13^th. We went on an epic roadtrip honeymoon where I unexpectantly but very happily became pregnant. Since then our days and weeks and months have been a blurr of thumbing through baby books and magazines, looking at videos and apps and really enjoying all the changes that are taking place now, and the ones to come.

Those are obviously just the huge “milestones” that have happened this year. It does not at all come close to all the smaller things that made these huge things possible.

I am a borderline obsessive documenter and list maker, and among all the things I documented I am really looking forward to sharing the list of books I read this year:

1. It- Stephen King
2. Tiny Beautiful Things- Cheryl Strayed
3. The Shining- Stephen King
4. Jonathan Livingston Seagul- Richard Bach
5. Modern Romance- Aziz Ansari
6. Blaze- Richard Bachman
7. Memory- Stephen King (short story)
8. 52 Weeks of Conscious Contact- Melody Beattle
9. An Absolutely Remarkable Thing- Hank Green
10. The Handmaid’s Tale- Margaret Atwood
11. Needful Things- Stephen King (A book Bob gave me to win me over. It worked!)
12. The Chronicles of Narnia: The Magician’s Nephew- C.S. Lewis
13. The Chronicles of Narnia: The Lion, The Witch, and The Wardrobe- C.S. Lewis
14. [Audio Book] Finders Keepers- Stephen King
15. The Chronicles of Narnia: The Horse and His Boy- C.S. Lewis
16. The Daily Stoic- Ryan Holiday

I have been on a Stephen King journey trying to read his books and then watch the movies, something I have wanted to do since I was a child. Lately my time reading has been taken up with reading The Chronicles of Narnia together with Bob (and baby stuff!), which has been such an enjoyable adventure into lighthearted fantasy.  However, I find I am not listening to music much, the free time I have to listen to something in the car or while cleaning I have been consumed with Dateline- I want to listen to horror stories and look up the fact and details. I suppose I’ll always be a little sick and twisted. My hobbies have fallen by the wayside as well, now being consumed by pre-nesting and working out since I am finally not feeling morning (all day) sickness and have my energy back. This winter and new year, I am hoping to further embrace this role as a creator, the giver of life. I want to retreat deep into my being, curl into my self, and continue to creatively express life through my hands- knitting dolls, beading earrings, making food, reading books while I await for the most beautiful thing my husband and I have ever created: a living life out of love.